[ AUDIO ] Counselor's Log; Stardate 52073.59

[jrltezridax]

[ Her voice is young and shows that in how deeply colored by emotion it is -- excitement and confusion and curiosity all buzzing around each other, in this case. ]

Counselor's Log, Stardate 52073.59. Several hours ago, what appears to be a subspace anomaly installed itself on my PADD. The anomaly gave a message -- oh, what was it? Oh, right, there is is. Welcome to [Deatth Chat]. Spelt with two t's, mind that. You may use this application to converse with other [chosen ones] across the multiverse.

It's incredible. I appear to be one of only ten 'chosen one's' selected to receive the anomaly across a plethora of Mirror Verses. Unlike previously thought, it appears there are more than just the one. I've given my PADD to Chief O'Brien to analyze, but it manifests on any new PADD or computer I attempt to use. No one else seems to be able to see it, but O'Brien does note a strange neutrino surge in any electronic I'm using. It appears to want me to interact with it as much as possible, though it's impossible to tell yet if the application itself is sentient.

The other 'Chosen Ones' seem to all be from Earth, with one exception though I don't recognize their species, and their years range from 1656 all the way to 6557. Ages range from 13 to 27. Well, unless you count me. But, well I'm 20. Dax is 300 or so. Well, the oldest apart from Dax is 27. But, also, not everyone has reported their age. Or their year.

I have made contact with the other users. The purpose or origin of the app is uncertain, but Captain Sisko is wary it may be a surveillance from the Dominion. We'll know more after Chief O'Brien gets a fix on it.

Dax out.

Comments

[jrltezridax]

[ After everyone's constant talk about that's the way things are and you should be honored, it's deeply gratifying to hear someone call it a shame. Ezri immediately feels guilty for feeling so relieved and shoves the feeling deep into her mind for Dax's next host to judge her for. ]

It is. All I got to prepare was a fifteen minute lecture from the ship's surgeon, and he wasn't even a Trill... nobody gets it, I guess, which is fair, because what has to be wrong with a Trill to not want to be joined, you know?

[ And now she hopes O'Brien never figures out how to externally access the app. Not that she'd get exiled from Trill just for saying that. Probably. ]

Three hundred years worth of knowledge comes with three hundred year's worth of dark secrets and embarrassing memories and navigating relationships, too, though, you've got to consider. I actually work with my past host's husband now, it's deeply awkward for the both of us.

And I'm kind-of dating, well, trying to, I guess, date someone my past host had a crush on and I really can't tell if it's my crush or Jadzia's. It's horrible!

[filtered to jrltezridax]

[the_obedient_servant]

Oh, I know how that feels. It's also not a particularly pleasant feeling watching your family replace you with your host, even praising them as better or the kind of friend they actually wanted. Everything you were becomes a symbol for people to use to push their agenda and then the second they denounce it, they denounce you too. But I'm not allowed to complain because I'm lucky that they ever accepted me to begin with.

[ Okay, now that all pretences of being possessed being a good thing is out of the way, they can finally be honest. ]

I imagine getting three hundred years worth of knowledge and memories would be very disarming. Especially the irrational attachment that comes with it. Luckily, I never had to experience that. I was mostly just told what to do, who to talk to and what to think, even when the past me would never have followed such demands.

It's actually fairly relieving to make connections completely seperate from your past lives. Because at least then your feelings are entirely up to you.

[ Cough,Susie, Cough.]

Re: [filtered to jrltezridax]

[jrltezridax]

I sure understand that. I had to break up with the boy I was seeing before I was joined because now he reminds me of a past host's son... and everyone keeps comparing me to my last host, Jadzia. "You have her eyes", "you have her smile"; I don't know how to explain to them that I really don't and they're projecting their memories of her onto me. It's horrid!

And all this after the crew on my last station all but stopped speaking to me after I was joined because it felt "weird" to them.

I even went back to Trill to see the counsel that overseeing symbiont bonds in person, but they couldn't do a thing to help me, even if they wanted to.

[ Ezri's a little worked up now. ]

You don't keep your memories as your lives go on, so to speak?